once upon a random day

2011-01-25T06:39:00.002+08:00

I love you.
It's as simple and as complicated as that.

You're so, so happy now. I still want to be by your side. Just as friends will do. I just want to see you smile and laugh. Maybe that'll ease the pain of the past long months.

2010-10-10T04:11:00.002+08:00

I can't bear to change this blog's head title.
It's a line that's unchanged, despite it all.

2010-05-27T09:20:00.002+08:00

I promise myself that I'll never complain about homework/tests/anything academic-related ever again.

I refuse to repress my life into such a narrow perspective anymore.

2010-05-16T15:00:00.002+08:00

I haven't been blogging for a long time. eh?

Today is 16 May.

Sorry to the taggers. I shall acknowledge your existance by replying your tags here.

@ Aaron:
WHICH AARON ARE YOU?!
Aaron Sin?? hahah, anyway, HELLO(:
Ah yeah, the stuff I blog about is pretty random :D

@ Rachel:
I find both their posts super funnehhhh :D hahahha I miss their randomness :c

@XY:
(Y)
I can't remember which day is it, but still, (Y)!! :D
Nice hairdo btw. haha :D

Update on my life.
Ahem,
I'M SUPPOSED TO DO GPP NOW.
So much for celebrating the end of PIs. :l

Ah well, one step at a time. (:

2010-04-27T05:56:00.003+08:00

Considering that I woke up 3 hours later than I had wanted and that I didn't study for FA later or do any tutorial or any long-due-for-weeks homework,

I shouldn't be here.

But I'm tired of doing what I'm supposed to do (or at least, trying to complete my to-do list) and feel a sudden urge to move my fingers. I can't play the guitar now for the ungodly A.M. time and for the fear of the guitar being flung down at a tremendous strength upon my head. So here I am typing.

I feel like shopping though I just spent more than half my weekly allowance already. Today is only Tuesday. Hoho, the shittiness of it.

Blogging seems like a chore now, rather than something I want to do. My already minimal creative juice level has been shrinking astonishingly. Astonishing because it's true. And because I myself didn't even realise it. Hmm.

Today is 27 April. Today is Tuesday. Today is a long Tuesday. Ahhhhhhhhh. ):

Oh wait. Now I remember why I'm here. (I need like 38 cups of coffee today)

This post is to declare that...

KENNETH LEE JIA LE. YOU OWE ME A BLOODY LOT OKAY.

Cookie is having a nightmare now. o_________o"
It's funny yet scary at the same time. She's half-whining, half-howling and kicking her legs in the air (she's lying on the floor, belly facing up). Uh, should I wake her up? ._.

2010-04-22T21:00:00.002+08:00

I made this printscreen ages ago but never got round to uploading it.

Life these days is.......sleepy.

2010-03-28T00:20:00.002+08:00

Hiro says:
alright, I think I go eat my branch now
Crappy food awaits me
feesh says:
branch?!
HAHAH
What time is it at your side of the world? haha xD
Hiro says:
12.03 p.m.
So yeah its time to eat my branch
My dorm got no breakfast on weedends...
feesh says:
ohhh i see i see
and it's brunch by the way
haha xD
Hiro says:
HAHAHA
Yep, I am eating a tree branch
feesh says:
ahhhh i see... you poor kid. I do sympathise with you. Pick out all the insects on the branch before eating it. I think it'll taste better. yup.
haha(:
Hiro says:
nah, the insects have proteins
They are extremely beneficial

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The previous blog post is a perfect example of procrastination.
Which is why I've learned from my lesson and started the Econs project 3 days before it is due. (:

HAHAHA 8D

I feel cheated to drink just now. How the hell am I supposed to know it's loaded with calories. ARGH. D:

The adreanaline rush is helpful though. Heh.

I insist on night cycling/ inline skating some time next week. Yes, random much.

2010-03-22T03:55:00.002+08:00

Dear ~~bloody~~ Math,

I didn't mean to avoid you for the whole week of March Hols.
You see, Stigma Notation and I got off on a wrong start and it's so difficult trying to come to terms with unreasonable Geometric Progression. I barely got to know Arithmetric Progression. I need more time. And a patient tutor who speaks English and not in endless streams of numbers that are supposed to make sense when put together.
In nine days, I've spent 4 watching movies (cca outing, one with K, one with family and earlier today which nearly sucked dry my allowance for this week) and another 2.5 days watching You're Beautiful. A day for CCA and a day for SHINee. After that, I just had to rest my eyes with sleep. You do understand, don't you? If I had taken time to stare at the tiny buttons on my GC, not only will my eyes hurt but my fingers will get twisted and the calculations will have come out wrongly anyway. Exactly.
At least I didn't declare that you (or Econs) should "go and die" like L.
Anyway, your due date is on Tuesday. I'll make time within the next 24 hours to talk business with you.
Here's to a future cooperative, understanding relationship.

Fish.

2010-03-19T00:39:00.003+08:00

I. (almost) Lost. Cookie. Today.

She got so damn freaked by this Chinese cleaner in my neighbourhood that she backed away frantically the second she saw him. Whattheshit. Weird.
In her frenzy to escape, her harness thing (which her leash is attached to) slipped off her body.
Sudden pang of fright stunned my heart. Really. O_O

Did I mention that she can run bloody fast?!
Once, when my brothers and I took her out for a walk (at bloody 5am), we had to take turns holding the leash and sprinting to keep up with her.

Which explains my mortal fear that she'll escape.

Anyway, she's pawing at my leg now and frisking away before coming back to paw at me again. She's trying to annoy me after the near-heart-attack she gave me today.

D:< !! A possible reason why she was so freaked out by that cleaner guy was because he ate dog meat before. Apparently the smell of dog meat will never leave your body if you've eaten it. Ew. I finished watching the entire You're Beautiful/You're Handsome series today! :3
I'm really late, I know. But I finally did and I don't regret it.
I was too tired/busy to watch it before. Thanks ST for the recommendation. :D
Leona told me that Jang Geun Suk is coming to Singapore ^-^
I'm still so smitten by the show that I feel like meeting him. XD hahahhah -slaps face- :x

I started watching from 10am till 11pm. o_o
Then I went to watch all the little extra videos. Behind-the-scenes, interviews etc.

I. Really. Need. Sleep. Now.

Goodnight(: / Good Morning

18/19 March 2010

2010-03-11T20:53:00.003+08:00

11 March 2010

I was quite pleased with Cookie when I let her out of her cage. There was no noise (ie, glass smashing) and the last time I checked, she was entertaining herself with hey toys.

Half hour later, "JIE!!!" was yelled in my delicate ear drums.

Cookie had somehow managed to find tissue paper to rip to shreds and scatter all over the floor. Like how a kindgergarden kid would play pretend, attempting to substitue snow with tissue paper. She threw in some dried potpurri flowers too. Torn to bits, of course. Satisfied with her masterpiece, she lied down and was chewing on a sock while looking at me innocently as if this were normal.

The moment I called her name sternly, she ran back to her cage obediently.

Smart for all the wrong reasons. o_o

Last day of school tomorrow :D

2010-03-07T09:10:00.005+08:00

7 March 2010

I stumbled upon something called guitar drifting. (Idk if many know about this. Laugh at me for being slow, whatever.)

OMG, IT'S EFFING COOL :D :D :D

I'm inspired all over again. xD

Oh, the cheese cake yesterday ended up being a custard cake.
I've no idea what happened. x_x
Apparently I was supposed to add flour, but the recipe didn't tell me to add any.
Uhhh......
._____."

(I'm serious! I'm not making any excuses D:< )

I can hear Liyin scream "fish moment"! :X LOL.

Someone reminded me about A level results, which came out on Friday.
While waiting at the busstop that day for my mum to pick me up, I heard this J3 talking on the phone about someone else. That someone else had STRAIGH As but a C for GP, so he has to go to an overseas university if he wants to study medicine. SO BLOODY SAD RIGHT. :X

Grats to all who passed the A Level Chinese :D

2010-03-06T17:32:00.002+08:00

So much for feeling bloody inspired. DX

The biscuits crumbs of the base of the cheesecake didn't combine together.
So I decided to bake the biscuit base in the oven longer, thinking it was an ingenious idea.

But. I didn't hear the oven alarm ringing nor did I remember about it until much later.
The biscuit base was an unappetising almost-charred deep brown.

Unfettered, I convinced myself that no one can see the colour of the base anyway. :D

The sausage-like tube of cream cheese looked like a huge, white, gross lump of shit. o_o"
I was supposed to beat it till it was smooth and fluffy but it was as tedious and futile as attempting to stir plasticine with a plastic spoon. D:
I decided to forget about this step and continue to add the sugar. And oh gosh it worked :D the mixture became really smooth like cream. (WOOHOO :D)

The faster I stirred, the smoother and more fluid the mixture became.

I was feeling jubilant and quite proud of myself .

Then, FUCK.

The cheese mixture shot out of the bowl and fucking splattered on my shorts, my shirt, the cupboard doors, the sink and the floor. =___________=

Fucking cream cheese on my clothes.

When I looked up from cleaning the floor, I saw my puppy sticking her head (cautiously) into the kitchen, possibly wondering where that "GAAAARGH FUCK" sound came from.

HAHA, it was really cute :3
Now, I've showered and am typing this, waiting for the cake to finish baking. ZZZ. :/
Quite pissed. D:

I got loads of work to do. :/ Homework, research for the debate topic and guitar practice. Not that I mind the last to-do item though.

I feel cheated into the debate thing. Less than half of the J1 classes had debate teams. D: !!
Plus, I have to stay back till 5pm on Monday for the debate thing to start.
I've never even been in a proper debating contest before. x_x

OH FUCK.
I FORGOT TO GREASE THE SIDES OF THE CAKE PAN. D:
Which means the cake will stick to the metal sides of the pan, which basicaly means the cake will look effing ugly. T^T

And I just wasted my afternoon doing this today. :/ pffffffffffft. :/

Windows Live Hotmail

2010-03-06T12:19:00.000+08:00

I like this email so much. Notice the coloured lines.
-----

Dear 1T36,

I am proud to introduce you the 'no stress' ws. I will be sending this ws to you after the completion of every topic. This ws will expose you to the different types of questions asked for that particular topic. This will be useful for those who think the tutorial questions are not sufficient to 'enlighten' them about the topic (i.e. this ws is for everyone). : )

I call it 'no stress' because it is NOT compulsory for you to do it and it is NOT to stress you with more work. (Yes... I know some of you are going to delete this email now. But please WAIT...). I will not be going through this during tutorial. However, you are always welcome to ask me about the questions if you have any queries during tutorial provided you have completed the tutorial.

I encourage you to at least keep this email in your inbox first. You may not need the worksheet now, but you may need it to prepare for your mid-year, promos or even prelims.

Another plus point about this 'no-stress' ws is the answer will be provided. Again, let me WARN you. DO NOT be a LOSER whereby you just print out the answer and 'read' the solution without attempting the questions first.

Last but not least, questions marked with * are more challenging.

That's all for now.

Rgs,
Ms Ng
(It's the last week for the term. Press on.)

------
I like my new Chem teacher already. :D

I woke up this morning/ afternoon feeling disgruntled and unsatisfied with myself. What the bloody hell have I been doing. D:
My other voice in my head protests that in my defense, I had been feeling half-sick this week. Mmm hmm.

I feel so inspired now. HAHA.
I'm going to bake a strawberry cheesecake. ^-^
Oh yes, I know this is really random. :D

2010-03-05T22:34:00.004+08:00

I've been so bloody sick and tired. (Literary and literally)
(Not that anyone knows the literal part 'cause I didn't tell anyone.)

But TGIF man, I can sleep in late tomorrow and 'recuperate'.

I MADE A HORRIBLE DISCOVERY THIS WEEK:

Coffee doesn't work on me anymore.
Not really anyway. I had seven doses of coffee one of the days this past week and I was still sleepy. Ridiculously weird. o_o

2010-02-28T10:03:00.002+08:00

On our drive home last night, my mum stopped at a petrol station to pump air into her car wheels.

My eager younger brother asked, "What, it's for free?!"

"Ya what. IT'S AIR YOU KNOW."

2010-02-24T03:39:00.002+08:00

Today is 24 Feb 2010.
There's guitar cca later and I haven't practised. But right now , my gleefully jumpy heart can't be bothered. 'Gleefully jumpy' sounds weird but I find that it fits this emotion. Heh. (:

23 Feb turned out to be an awesome day after all. (:
Over-ratedly popular songs kept replaying in my head the whole day. (A certain few lines in 'Meet Me Halfway') I love that despite long draining periods, in less than a minute, I remember why we've stuck with each other. :3

Happy happy happy~

2010-02-16T09:07:00.002+08:00

16 Feb 2010.

Again, I haven't been using my computer lately.

A lot has happened.

Firstly, THANK YOU Leona, Diane (I'm not sure how to spell your Korean name, SORRY GIRL ): ), Bridget and SJ and I think another girl contributed too. Thanks for bringing a cake for me that day. ^^ I was so, so touched (and embarrassed). I think you could tell that I was lost for words. :$ Sorry if my reaction was not exactly what you expected; I was way too shocked. HAHA xD

Thanks to all the people who wished me too :D That includes the phone call from Kevin, Jun Wei, Arsal and ST. ^^

I was really thankful for all these gestures because I wasn't at all chirpy on my birthday. On the night before my brithday, my grandma was admitted to the hospital. I didn't get to visit her till 13 Feb, the day after my brithday. :l

She recovered rather fast. Miraculously fast. On the 12th, she was still in a stroke, bed-ridden condition. Her speech was slurred and unclear. On the 13th, she could move both her legs and arms with ease; the stroke symptom is gone. Somehow. Her speech is much clearer. But she can't remember most of the family members. On the 14th, she still can't remember me. On the 15th, she called me SUN YU. -FAINT- At least by now, she can sit comfortably on a wheelchair with a steady blood pressure.

I just want her to be well again. <3

2010-02-08T16:38:00.002+08:00

8 Feb 2010

SO. I didn't use a computer for leisure. For WEEEEEEEKS.

I'm torn between feeling shocked or being proud of myself. Heh.

In summary of the weeks events,
2 FEB 2010 SHINEE CONCERT. WOOHOO :D

I remember feeling really surreal about SHINee actually being here in Singapore. I still had that surreal feeling just before the concert. And my heart literally leapt the moment they walked on stage. That very moment they walked on stage, the atmosphere went berserk. Like, effing MAD okay. This usher kept trying to block ST and I from taking photos but when we saw at least 50 people taking pictures without anyone stopping them, ST went ahead to blind my eyes with incessant flashes anyway. Hahah.

On this note, I want to say to Oh Joonsung that I admire your talents in composing music. You managed to talently blend oriental and modern music elements with fitting lyrics for these drama shows. And I really think you're awesome. So. I'm really sorry for being rude for leaving your concert early.

THERE. I suddenly feel less guilty. That instant heavy lift of my heart. (Yes I feel guilty till now.)

Second. My appeals to TWO JCs FAILED. Oh my griefing, aching heart.

Not.
I'm not exactly bonded fully with my class but they're really ~~nice~~ pleasant people (:
(I'm trying to eliminate the word 'nice' from my dictionary from now on.)

Third. I'm EFFING PISSED with my skin condition -.-
I've been rigorously applying sunblock during outdoor activities during orientation but at the end of week, on a fateful Saturday 6Feb, I got bloody suntanned anyway when I went to watch the (boring) airshow. Imagine my exasperation. Now my face is two or three shades browner and CNY is this coming weekend. AHH. ):

2010-01-27T23:21:00.003+08:00

I have no more space in my heart for disappointments.

I'm so tired but I have to get to super-uber-far-away Catholic JC tomorrow morning.

Fuck people who tell me what to do, where to go. I've had bloody enough.
All you mindless and insensitive morons, must I spell it out for you that I'm already very demoralised and upset?

When I saw the letter from CJC and saw the list of activities till 4 Feb, I felt slightly nauseous and faint.

I felt an even sharper pang of hurt when I saw that the local universities don't give a shit about Humanities subjects.

Because I want to do H2 Literature.
So badly.
But I would only be wasting my time on a subject that can't allow me to pursue a relevant degree and in future, a job. Wouldn't I?

I feel like just throwing in the towel, raise my hands in the air, in surrender. I'm really exhausted.
But I can't pretend and I can't procrastinate.
Which is what I really, really hate.

I hate even more that I've to see you in CJC, you fucking idiot.

I don't want to argue but you keep talking on and on and you haven't the slightest clue the impact of the blow of disappointment inside of me.

Why do I have to work when I'm sick?
Why does someone with the exact same score as me, can get into the school I want? And that someone didn't even put this school as his/her first choice.
Why do I have to be so pathetic? Otherwise, all this crap would not have even begun.

Why don't I understand you and vice versa?

2010-01-26T12:06:00.002+08:00

26 Jan.

Tomorrow is 27 Jan.

OMG. OMG. OMG. OMG. OMG.

Tomorrow. Tomorrow. Tomorrow.

I'm about to faint any time today due to frantic nervous spasms of the heart.
(That sounds weird, grammatically weird. Huh.)

I'm starting to dislike that person-who-is-biased-to-vj more. :l
It's not like I reveal what happens in your personal life in front of everybody. I'm not an introvert or not willing to share or anything like that but still, it's basic formality that you don't discuss such issues during briefings in a rather large group right? -.- Sheesh.

As I'm typing this, I'm going to be late for work. ><"

I haven't been using ther computer for a long time, considering it's a must-do for my generation. It's like taboo or something. HAH.

Bye Shandy, we'll miss you.
and we'll miss your extreme randomness (paired with Wilmar) even more.
):

2010-01-16T11:08:00.003+08:00

16 Jan 2010

I went to find these videos again even though I've already watched them before. Just because. :D

^ Wait till 2:00 for the second video. It's worth watching Taeyeon's expression XD

I think X hates me now because I can't go to X's event thing. :/
How how how. ):

2010-01-15T08:16:00.004+08:00

15 Jan 2010

No more procrastinating.
No more waiting.
No more dilemmas.
No more arguments.
(Edit: Sorry. I didn't know you had such bitter feelings towards JC.)

I'm going to choose my post-secondary school choices NOW.

Actually, by typing this right now, I still AM procrastinating, eh?

Why should I fill all the 12 slots for choices when I really just want to go to my first choice? :/

-does the MJC-MJC-MJC chant-

I've been so busy lately that I've stopped facebooking and watching Korean reality shows like Factory Girl (XD gooooooood watch :D) (If you like SNSD :} )

All the few hours in the morning before I go out for work and at night when I just came back are devoted to spending time with Cookie. It's difficult to train a dog who sees less and less of you each day. ):

I'm having a super unhealthy breakfast: leftover birthday cake.

Cookie loves to eat cake. She kept eyeing the box. So cute!! hahaha :}

Edit:
I got mixed feelings on 110110.
A bit disappointed with my Sciences. Super shocked yet satisfied with Com Hum and Amaths. Extremely exhilarated with English and Lit results. (I'll -- albeit a little reluctantly -- thank Poon one day. When I have time to go to TK and drop off a letter or card or something.)

(On this note, may I say that I was sooo tempted to yell "HAH, IN YOUR FACE" when my stunned parents saw my English and Lit results. :D)

And then the whole dilemma and mental debate started again. :/
Because in the end, I can't get into a good JC. :/

2010-01-09T23:09:00.002+08:00

9 Jan 2010 (Saturday)

I've been having an illness marathon since Thursday.
Thursday night and this morning, I had fever.
My itchy and uncomfortable sore throat on Thursday has horrificly evolved to a terrible, unpredictable cough today. (Apparently, my boss thinks I'm okay because I sounded okay when I talked to him. That's because I spammed herbal sweets and Strepsils like a drug addict on my way to work. -.-)
Right now, my fever is gone (again) but in its place, a flu has settled in and is currently wrecking havoc with my breathing.

It's like, my body can't decide whether to have a cold or a fever. Uh huh, weird.

I'm getting more confused and frustrated with JC and Poly. Maybe it's just that I'm really tired now and remember why I hate being sick.

SCREW IT. GO ITE OKAY.

HAHAHAHHA.

(kidding)

2010-01-07T09:40:00.004+08:00

7 Jan 2009.

My heart literally leapt for joy when I called Cookie's name and she responded by coming to me. Unbelieving, I deliberately called her from afar in random places around the house and like omg, she really does recognise her name now. WOOTS :D

She was dutifully obeying my calls (:D)
until her short-attention-span-ism kicks in and she was glued to the hamster cage. -.-
The poor hammies.
They froze to the sawdust-covered ground and stared incredulously, with their tiny eyes opened to their widest possible, when a big, damp dog nose came sniffing around.
Ahhhh should have taken pictures of the hammies. Epic funny seeing their stunned expressions.
Uh yeah, sadist much? But it was really cute XD

Cookie won't listen to my dad but will listen to me. YAYism :D Sort of listen to me anyway. ie, she obeys me more. -victory song-
Edit: My dad says that Cookie associates my voice with food/treats for her. Wlao eh -.- Jealous then say so laa. (muahahaha)

Cookie just left for injection at the vet's with my dad. I'm feeling the pain for her. I myself took TWO injections last night. (Which I think is a waste of money. lol.)

I realise that I seem to be updating about Cookie more than about myself. Huh.

Crap la, results coming out on Monday. ):
Thanks to Arsal on facebook, I realise that results day has a very nice date.

110110.

Coooooool right? But sounds like some doomsday thing. Like, end-of-the-world-ish. :/

Going for job training at St Regis hotel later. Damn nervous. I think if I cut a slit in myself, I can see my heart shivering in spasms because that's exactly how it feels like now.
Eeyer, how I sound so sadist de. D: HAHA.

At the same time, I'm super sian-ed 'cause I can't go for the 2H bbq tonight. T-T All because the bloody job training ends at 8.30 tonight and by the time I reach Pasir Ris, it would be almost 10pm. ):

I need to do research on Orchard area and Singapore stuff for the hotel job now. Tata.

2010-01-06T15:12:00.005+08:00

COOKIE :D

6 Jan 2010.

Spent last night accompanying Cookie so she won't disturb others with her whines and cries. She's starting to bark o.o!

Gosh, if she's so noisy now, what happens in future when her puppy whines become deep, resonating adult-dog barks? >-<"

I tried to train her by only going to her cage when she's finally quiet.

The moment I sat on the floor in her cage, she lay on my lap and curled up to sleep.

(Say "AWWWWWW!!") :D

I think she feels insecure being on her own. Poor thing. Lol.

Finally going to start working at the hotel tomorrow. Tomorrow is just training though. Nervous nervous nervous. :/

Edited: Added pictures. This is my brother sleeping with Cookie in the cage about 10 minutes ago. :D

2010-01-04T13:59:00.004+08:00

Today is 4th Jan 2009.

WE GOT A PUPPY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D :D :D (yesterday)

Her mum was a brown labrador and her dad is a black husky.
(So technically, she's a mongrel. But she's so sweet. Heh(:)
(Her mum died after the puppies' birth. ): )

Her name is COOKIE!
She's 2 months old but is quite huge already o.o"
She's more like a husky than a lab.

She keeps whining when we put her in her "cage". It's the cutest dog-whine I've ever heard.
("OMG SO CUTE xD" keeps squealing in my mind.)

She is an attention-seeker and demands company.
My dad is spoiling her. He slept on the floor outside her cage last night just so she won't whine and 'cry' so much.
o__________________________o
And this morning, my dad brought her out of the cage and slept on the floor in his room with her. She didn't even sleep D:! She just wanted company. LOL, WHAT A BABY RIGHT. (But so, so cute XD)
(During this time, my dad ignored 10 over calls. He is expected to go overseas this Thursday which means he shouldn't ignore those calls.)

P.S: I kept emphasising on her gender because everyone except me kept refering to her as a guy. Slip of the tongue, I guess.

Training a 2-month old puppy with a short attention span and an overwhelming curiosity (keeps wandering off to look around the house) is quite tedious. haha

My cousin got one of the puppies too. Her puppy is a male, more of a lab and his name is Java.
Almost all her pets are related to caffeine o__o"
Her other dog is Latte.
Her two cats are Mocha and Cream.
HAHA.

The dog's whining again. Awwwwww... :3

No pictures yet because my camera was being crappy and just now it's battery died on me. -.-"

Oh ya. Let me relish today as the day.......
everyone has to go to school
...
BUT I DON'T :D
WOOTS :D

2010-01-02T00:44:00.005+08:00

1st Jan 2010

1st day of another year.

I kept saying 2012 instead of 2010 today. Idk why. -.-

Waiting for the bloody dryer thing to dry my uniform for work tomorrow. It's taking forever.

This is a really pathetic way to start off a new year. But... -shrugs-

Exhausted ttm. Worked 8 hours straight, without dinner. -unenthusiastic cheers-
Happy to chat with clare just now after aeons (:
Guilty over missing New Year Eve plans. :/
Still so so so tired. Bloody eejits left early from work one by one.

Bloody dryer. Hurry up please.

What's the word to describe this feeling? : Missing K :/ who disappeared off to M'sia suddenly today. :/

Everyone's talking about results day. Screw results day laaaa.. I'd really rather pretend I didn't sit for the papers at all. Really. Nervous like shiii.... DIE LAAA.

Realised today that the world is soooo small.
Or as Clare puts it, the world is big but SINGAPORE is small. So yeah.
Saw a woman I sort of knew and Er Xuan Yu at the same busstop today. Huh, weird.
Then I realised that Clare's church friend is my primary school friend's friend. Weirder huh. Because it was only after a few years before I finally realised the link. LAG. rofl.

Singapore is small but got a lot of things to learn. ARGH. Haven't started my research for job :/
(I don't want to cry on the job and I plan not to. JY JY feesh D:)

Stupid dryer. Exasperated now.

2009-12-31T21:25:00.011+08:00

It may be old but it made me laugh. Haha (: Nice one.

I had a novel but epic failed idea of making homemade frozen yoghurt.

Only the top layer of yoghurt in my cup froze D:

I think I just got hit by some bug. Some digital bug thing.

My comp is lagging like fug and my phone keeps turning on and off at least 4 times in a row now.

Plus, the light or fan or something outside keeps making some weird noise. As if someone is switching on the light or something like that.

BUT. I'm alone at home now. -shudders-

Kay, I'm not alone. I've got 2 hamsters, 3 fighting fish and about 15 other fishes in a huge tank in a mish mash collection of species.

Wow, I feel so much better.

NOT. ):

The hamsters are fighting and squeaking now. I don't dare to touch them now lest they bite me. D:

(the above took quite a long while to type out properly. lag lag lag)

Oh.

I REALLY REGRET NOT PAYING ATTENTION DURING ALL THOSE SS EXCURSIONS IN PRI SCHOOL ):

I need to know a lot, a lot about Singapore. Within this following week.

I mean, yes I know I'm Singaporean. But but but. ):

Ahhhhhhh....

Anyway, I regret not fully appreciating all those SS trips to Little India, Chinatown and the like. :l All those recollections will really come in handy now.

I'll explain when I really do have that job.

Now, I need to keep talking to street-smart people like Chiaw Min :D

I had an interview earlier today. I was being uber contradicting the whole bloody time.

GOSH x__x

Interviewer: Are you confident in approaching strangers?

Me: Yea.

I: Are you afraid of me?

M: No.

(But I stuttered and mumbled as if it was my judgement day. Hah.)

I: How well do you know Singapore?

M: I admit that in terms of facts and history, I do not know Singapore in detail. But I do know the general facts.

(But I couldn't even name the three new malls in Orchard. Or typical tourist attractions in Singapore, eg, Downtown East. Or typical local cuisines. GOSH?!)

(Okay, to be fair, I didn't think that these attractions would count because would patrons of the hotel in umm, this "class" even be interested in these places or cheap local fare?? :/)

I felt like I just bit the hand that fed me all these years.

I felt like I had betrayed Singapore, in a sense. HAHA.

My heart is brimming with patriotic guilt. A little oxymoronic. But, yeah. xD

It's like, a friend who had always helped you but you didn't even know what is his/her favourite colour. Which can be something very obvious, ie, how many blue/red/orange/green things do they own?

Randoming.

One of the few things I could answer confidently was that yes, I knew that there's a direct bus from my home to the hotel I was being interviewed in. (My interviewer lives in my neighbourhood. GOSH GOSH.)

But that was only because I googled on how to get to that hotel. Lucky much?

-bangs head on table-

Le sigh. haha.

This cheered me up(:

I love these quirky ideas. :D

2009-12-31T12:37:00.006+08:00

Last day of 2009. (:

My back feels so effing stiff. It feels more like there's a wooden board between my shoulder blades (Eh, is that what they're called?) rather than human flesh.

I figured I would be too tired to blog later. So while all these thoughts are still fresh in my mind...

NEW YEAR RESOLUTIONS! (:

Screw the typical "I'll study harder" resolution. Never, ever, ever followed it. Hah.
Like, since I learnt the concept of New Year resolutions in lower primary till now.

So here goes,

1# NEVER LOSE MY PHONE. D: that applies to camera or purse too :X

2# Take care of myself more. Haha. I've had enough of giving in to others so much. My work and effort were taken advantage of. People dear to me will know, if they remember my rantings. Heh. Anyways, I've decided that I want to be a bit selfish in 2010.

3# Learn to forget after I forgive. I tend to forgive but never forget. :/ (As in, the major things. I'm not petty over smallish issues.)
I guess this is one resolution that ought to start now -- not delayed till tomorrow on 1st Jan -- and kept in my system till I die.

(At this point, my mind has wandered to all the things I planned to do this morning. There's 15 minutes left to play guitar and play with the hamsters and download songs and find new guitar tutorials to inspire myself and continue blogging. 15 minutes before I ought to go shower etc and go out again.)

(It was at that point that all the rational, inspiring resolutions that were fresh in my head were forgotten. -.-)

(So, I'll randomly add stuff. Somewhere in time. I guess. I hope.)

(I tend to forget something unless I write it out. WHY AHHH. What's wrong with me? :c )

((Ignore the brackets. Random thoughts bombarding.))

2009-12-29T22:15:00.002+08:00

29 Dec 2009

OHHH. For some reason, I kept thinking today is 28 Dec. Until I checked my phone just now. Um, okay, so that means I have to expect one day's worth of pay lesser today. :/
Kenneth's and my plan to change jobs has a MAJOR loophole. I just realised. Oh gosh,must tell him when he wakes up. -.-

Hmmm, I got free entry to the zoo today :D
Lol, that's a positive way to view today. hahahah :D

I think it's karma.
I told my brothers about facebook groups related to Dora the Explorer (You know that really, really slow kid's show. Ya. Yes, we are all childhood-deprieved chums) that have group names something like
"DORA! The banana tree is right behind you! And you call yourself an explorer!!"

I am not laughing at Dora now.
Because I've to wear Dora-the-Explorer-style uniforms D: GOSH. AAhhhh..... D:

I was told to wear white socks to work (trial session actually). Unfortunately, I brought ankle socks which meant I kept getting scratched above my ankles by the edge of the boots (part of uniform).
I got ugly red marks on my shins now... Oh the agony. -wails-

Oh ya. I want to sell something on ebay.
It's a pink bag that is plastic-y on the outside.
The bag's handle is Hello Kitty's head.
Every zip the bag has is a Hello Kitty head.
On the bag itself, these metal itallic wordings: Hello Kitty.

It's so horrible it's quite terrifying. REALLY. hahahhaha.
What's even more astounding is how the bloody hell did my aunt have even the slightest notion of getting this for my Xmas present? Horrors of horrors. She must have really forgotten that I'm sixteen and not SIX.

D: !!!

I thought I lost my phone again today.
But I left it in my wardrobe while getting clothes to shower. OOPS :X
And someone had to call my phone over 10 times trying to find it in their car. Double oops. SORRY ):

2009-12-28T11:58:00.008+08:00

28 Dec 2009

This is a close-up on the top I bought some days ago.
I just realised that it looks like the top and bottom border pattern on this blogskin. haha.

Going to the ZOO later for my job interview.
-fingers and toes crossed-
I really want this job!!! D:
Actually, anything that pays well will do. Heh. :b

Edited: Eh, the zoo job wasn't really what I had expected because I would have to travel super far (travelling time: 1.5 hrs) for an average pay. Hmm :/

At least I've another job interview for another job at a hotel on the 31st(:
Way to celebrate New Year's Eve huh. haha.

Kenneth's plan is to work the zoo job in the morning to early afternoon shift then go to the hotel job for the night shift. o________o"
Gosh. Crazy ttm.

Random thought: I still can't decide between JC and Poly. The anxiety is gnawing at me bit by bit every single day. UGH ):

Oh something else random.
Kenneth woke up late so we were supposed to meet at a later time.
With extra time on my hands, I tried to play around with my new curling iron.
Gleefully playing with my new toy (:D), I curled almost half of my hair before I realised I won't have time to finish. (:O!!!)
So.
I showered AGAIN to straighten my hair.
And so, I was late. Heh. ^^v

2009-12-27T21:17:00.006+08:00

27 Dec 2009

Let's Just Fall In Love Again lyrics

Let's pretend baby
That you've just met me
And I've never seen you before
I'll tell all my friends
That I think you're staring
And you say the same to yours

And oh, we'll dance around it all night
And then I'll follow you outside
And try to open up my mouth
And nothing comes out right

And I wanna fall in love with you again
I don't have to try
It's so easy
Who needs to pretend?
But because it's so funny
Let's just think about it, honey
Let's just fall in love again

I'll call you in three days
Not too soon, not too late
And I'll ask your roommate if you're home
You call me on Thursday
And we'll hang out all day
Then fall asleep on the phone

And oh, I'll hold your hand when we drive
And we'll lose track of all the time
And we'll tell everyone
That we ain't never felt so alive

And I wanna fall in love with you again
I don't have to try
It's so easy
Who needs to pretend?
But because it's so funny
Let's just think about it, honey
Let's just fall in love again

We'll fall disgustingly fast
And we'll stop hanging out with friends
And they'll be so offended

And I wanna fall in love with you again
I don't have to try
It's so easy
Who needs to pretend?
But because it's so funny
Let's just think about it, honey
Let's just fall in love again

Let's just fall in love again...

I made this origami hexangonal star box today. :D
I'm super proud of myself. hahahah :D

2009-12-27T04:12:00.008+08:00

27 Dec 2009 Effing 4am++

Gawd, Im bored.

I tried blog-hopping and for some reason, there're about 5-10 people whose tagboards can't be seen. ): I think its just my computer being crappy because I left it on for days in a row. HEH. ^^V

It suddenly dawned on me that I've been doing effing nothing much this holiday. ):

I'm so tempted to go to poly just because I could have an extended holiday. HAHAHA.

Speaking about polys, I haven't looked through which courses I plan to go to. ST told me to go and research on Mass Comm courses available.
But I'm very, very reluctant to do so.
People tell me that SP and Ngee Ann poly (and Nanyang poly, according to ST) are the better polys for Mass Comm.
Only Clare mentions that TP is good for Mass Comm. Apparently, to get to Mass Comm in TP, you've to get an A for English, which was what her brother got.

Ehhh, basically, the general excuse for myself not doing this poly research is the complexity of it. I guess. HAHA. :/

The underlying reason is because I'm worried my English results won't make it. Kenneth kept telling me not to worry about it or something along those lines. :/

But my worries are effing valid. That's why it's worrying,right! D:

Valid Reason 1#
I've never got an A for English before. Nada. (Because I can never finish my essays. hah.) I don't remember my grades but I know for sure I've no As for English

Valid Reason 2#
I didn't finish my bloody mid-year Chinese O's paper and see what I got -- a grade marked down from everyone else.
I didn't finish my English paper.
Ho.

-doom-

When Poon asked (or pestered) me whether I finished the English paper, I told her yes to shut her up and just so that she won't have a chance to pull down my hopes and poke at my nerves.

But my hopes are already pulled down and I'm poking at my own nerves. Which is stupidly ironical, really. :/ argh.

The following shall be random things that don't have any link okay.

On Monday, I'll be going for a job interview... at the ZOO :D
If I get the job, I'll work there 6days a week from morning till the zoo closes at 6pm or 7pm.
I'll be living a Pri 1 dream of seeing the animals everyday. HAHAHA :D

It'll be tedious travelling long distances to and fro everyday but at least I won't be travelling alone. (: Heh.

My younger brother told everyone he wanted a remote-controlled helicopter toy for Christmas.
When he lost it the 2nd day he had it, he denied it and said he always wanted a remote-controlled plane apparently because it's easier to fly. Hahaha.
The 1st day he had it, it was still in it's gift wwrap so that doesn't count right? :B

Ohh, the best part is, he somehow lost control and flew the helicopter over a building. It's somewhere on the roof-top of a nearby HDB flat now. HAHA ;D

Wow, I just spent 42min. Not bad. haha

2009-12-26T22:36:00.003+08:00

26 Dec 2009

Yesterday I was...retarded.

I left my phone in my dad's car the day before yesterday.
As I walked to the gate, I pushed a key to the lock, realising a whole five seconds later that the key in my hand was the car key.

So I went to get the right one.

Later in the elevator down, I realised only after going down some 10 storeys that I was holding a mug of milk in my other hand. No wonder this mother and daughter couple gave me weird looks. HAH.

I took the wrong bus to my grandma's house.
And I even walked to the wrong flat. Nice.

The sweet thing about this Christmas is the curling iron all my aunts chipped in to get me. <3! wahaha :D

2009-12-24T10:01:00.003+08:00

24 Dec 2009

I realised I chose a blogskin with no date. LOL. So I'll type dates here from now on. haha

It's Xmas Eve (:

Going to watch Alvin & the Chipmunks 2 later.
Always wondered why Alvin got all the attention -- besides being the lead singer.

I mean, you dont say, Joe & the Jonas right?? o________o

Or, idk, TaeYeon & the Girls. ROFL, random much? :D

In an extraordinary turn of events, my dad offered to get me a new phone as an Xmas present.

I asked for the money to buy the phone to buy clothes instead.

In a PHENOMENALLY, UNEXPECTED twist,

...he actually agreed. WOOTS (:

2009-12-24T00:51:00.003+08:00

I am currently thinking of sacarstic and obvious remarks to make in front of those people tomorrow at dinner.

I really hope to make them squirm uncomfortably in their own skins.
I want their hands to turn clammy and their retorts/excuses/replies to be shaky and incoherent.
I want guilt to creep up around their hearts.
And I want them to suddenly be "nice" people (under pressure, perhaps?). At least for one day. Please, it's not too much to ask.

It's childish.
Petulant, yes.

But.

THEY STARTED IT! D:

ST will be spending Xmas eve working a sucky job.
I will be spending Xmas eve making the atmosphere uneasy for some people.

Yes, I'm still bearing grudges against them. I really, really can't help it.

On a slightly brighter note,
My wardrobe is half full now. YAY :D
Because I'm finally getting rid of super old clothes.
SO I've like, full rights to go shopping. :D
-grins-

2009-12-23T11:43:00.003+08:00

My mum told me really fantastic stories about a certain someone during their Malaysia trip. Emotions blended within me: Amusement, Shock, Scorn, Anger and Disgust.

Amusement because of all the various ways she humiliated herself.

Shock because of the way she could come up with lame excuses for her despicable behaviour.

Scorn because that person has no self-pride. Seriously.

Anger because they thought they could take advantage. Perhaps they thought they had the upper hand. The joke is on themselves.

Anger because of how they treated the aged with their blatant show of unconcern. That'syour own mother for goodness sake. How could you be so selfish and still have the guts to continue acting as if nothing happened, as if we owe you?!

Disgust just because your actions can only be described as such.

I hope that these people will meet others who will give them their just deserts.

I don't know if I should be thankful that I didn't join them on this holiday or the opposite. I didn't go so I didn't have to tolerate people like them. I didn't go so my parents had spent a little lesser.

Part of me felt regret that I didn't go but that's only beacuse I am spurred by an avengeful heart.
If I had gone along with them to that dreaded holiday albeit reluctantly, maybe I would have thought of a lot of sacarstic remarks to spit in their faces. I am that pissed. At least someone would stand up to these assholes if I had gone with my family. And give them a verbal slap on their face. They would be speechless and would mind their actions.

From now on, when these pests are in my presence, I'll keep on my toes, ready to attack.

Urgh. Seriously. Despicable TTM. D:

2009-12-21T22:49:00.003+08:00

Just came back about an hour ago.

Went out to "celebrate" Rachel's birthday :D
Movie + some arcade + sakae dinner :D

Happy (belated) Birthday Rachel :D

Gosh I'm so tired for no reason and my contact lens were dry the whole day. I really hate it when I can't see clearly because of dry lens....I was so scared walking home from the busstop; unnecessary fear was building up in my heart over unseen/vague-and-creepy-looking stuff.

I'm like, desperately finding a suitable part-time job that pays well.
I've wasted all my time already.
December is almost over.

My family is coming home tomorrow from M'sia and still have no job. UGH.

And I'm negative $12 broke. GOSH, AHHHH..... ):

I hate myself for wasting all this time. ):
But I hate myself more after knowing someone fought with someone else to try to help get Kenneth's and my jobs... ):

Ah screw this.

2009-12-18T12:26:00.002+08:00

"We Got Married" is a Korean reality series where celebrities (maybe a few are not) are sort of forced to marry each other and live together. It's super cute! :D

I started watching at the TaeYeon part.

ANYWAYS, I love how this fat woman (an ex-Judo player) ShinYoung made a Korean wrap thing spammed with wasabi AND red pepper paste for her "husband".

Around 2:07, she says, "What am I going to do with this? (She's allergic to pepper)"

"I made it with love."

LOL!

2009-12-17T10:50:00.002+08:00

I wanted to make myself an egg mayo sandwich this morning (perhaps in a self delusion that I can cook). (Wait lol, I only cooked hard-boiled eggs. HAHA)

I ended up just eating the egg mixture without the bread XD

2009-12-16T11:59:00.002+08:00

To sn!sholV who will never read this:

I've been seeing your (real) name popping up all over facebook for the past one year.
Like in Friends For Sale or other applications where everyone's name is listed and I'll always see yours first because it starts with an 'A'.

You changed your birthday to 1 Jan. How mature of you to not get over your past till now. Please grow up; there're millions more people suffering emotional hurts more drastic, more painful than yours. I'm not even refering to the starving or homeless. I'm refering to the normal people with a house, food and proper education like the majority but who suffer in silence behind closed doors.

For a year now I still dream of you occasionally and sometimes I pray really hard that I won't see you at Dhoby Ghaut, the only place you'll go out to, if you go out at all. Fine, save for church and the bball court.

I can't stand looking at your name anymore and being in a sian-ed/irritable/etc foul mood because of you.
I don't hate you but the more I think about it, I just can't stand you any longer.

And so goodbye once and for fucking all.

2009-12-15T14:21:00.003+08:00

AHH. I feel like an idiot. My blog song wasn't playing 'cause it was a video in a normal music player form. Uh, MixPod has different types of players -- for plain music or for videos.
Anyways, this song/video playing is super nice :D

Gosh, I think the lack of schooling led me to keep typing "vedio" just now. Z. :l

I'm going to give up waiting for the waitressing job at St. Regis hotel. :l
It's been more than a week. AND, more than half of December has vanished into thin air already. -gasp-

I'm scouring newspaper ads like crazy now.
I feel as if I were retrenched.
I mean, once not long ago, I had a "purpose" in my life, I had a goal, I had a routine (albeit boring and tiring, it does have this drive that sustains us mentally, no?). But now, I've been idling my days away. Save for the past few days and later because I'm going out :D WOOTS :D

2009-12-13T23:06:00.002+08:00

I want to type this here so I'll remember this for life.
So.

As long as I'm below 21 and as long as I'm taking pocket money from my parents, my parents are always entitled to throwing rubbish...in my face.

The above totally PWNED the following notion passed some weeks ago:

If I go to JC, my parents will pay for my uni. If I go to poly, they won't.

2009-12-13T22:43:00.002+08:00

A scalding burn on the cheeks.
An uncontrollable throbbing in the throat.
A sound, trembling and pathetic. I can't believe its my own voice.
Hotter streaks sliding down the face do not make the cheeks feel any cooler.
Struggling to catch one's breath.
A numbing feeling on the surface but a turmultous storm raging inside.
Clenched fists, wavering, shivering in spasm. Of shock, of incense, of fear, of fervent hopes of righteousness.
A blurred vision.
The pain inside overwhelms the outer blow.
That twisted, twisted agony. Within.

Suddenly all the descriptive words, phrases etc teachers spoon fed us for our essays don't seem so fake and exaggerated anymore.

2009-12-13T12:51:00.002+08:00

"If" by Taeyeon, leader of SNSD.
I'm not emotionally attached to the song. English-subtitled videos of this song in YouTube reveal its meaning which drip with heart-wrenching emotion.

But, I just like her voice. hah.
I find Asian girls with powerful, clear voices super fascinating. Idk why. (:

2009-12-13T12:33:00.004+08:00

New Year Resolution:

Don't lose my handphone. :X

LOL.

First thing I'll buy with my salary: 2nd-hand phone :/

My family is going to M'sia on Tues till 22dec.
It'll just be my maid and me at home. Heheh, can't wait. -grins-

2009-12-12T12:40:00.002+08:00

I'm so restless now. HELP ):

You said you'll give me time to gain back my trust in you

but you didn't even do anything to attempt to gain back this trust.

The irony of what you said

and what you're doing.

Ehh, I think I miss Literature. Not the teacher(s) who taught me but the subject. :/
I miss writing elaborate essays for English and not finishing within the expected time limit. Like, LOL what am I saying?

2009-12-12T11:21:00.002+08:00

Went to the band performance at tjc last night.
Skipped dinner.
Took cab there last minute.
Almost got lost in the dark tjc. LOL.
Failure camwhoring :/ LOL x2

I felt kind of cheated. I thought the TK band were going to play at tjc last night so I went (plus Clare already helped me to book the tickets).
BUT it's actually the tjc band playing with a handful of tk sec4 band people as guest performers. :/
A tk teacher conducted one or two songs.
There was this sort of African-ish song where the band players pause to make bird-like whistling sounds (like in Snow White or Bambi or some "enchanted forest" sounds. Like, LOL) which is quite refreshing and eye-opening for me. haha
Other than that, I felt that it was nothing much :x

My younger brother is being super egoistic about his piano-playing skills. He obviously forgot that I was the one who taught him the very basics =.= wth man.

2009-12-11T05:07:00.004+08:00

It's freaking 5am yet I can't sleep. ):

I didn't go out since Tuesday and I feel sooo fugging bored and lethargic. Like, as if my world has come to a meaningless end because I'll mundanely rot away. Erode bit by bit. :/

I just realised today is only fugging Friday.

This whole week was full of failures, I just realised.
Sunday, WeiTeng and I totally changed plans.
Monday, Chiawmin postponed the Sec4 guides potluck gathering :/
Tuesday, I messed up A LOT of things.
Wednesday, was in short, a let down.

Not that I'll bear grudges against others. Really. Tues' and Wed's mishaps are entirely my fault -.-

Happy belated birthday anyway Clare (:

I need to start on a part-time job D:
I know hotels don't revolve their operations around me but I (perhaps naively) think you should just give me the job sooner so I can help in whatever ways I can sooner. And I will stop wasting my time too.

I'm currently 15cents richer than Alex, according to what he says on fb. He's $1.50 rich xD

So if I can't go for part time, neither will I be able to go out with friends. So. In other words, I'll be bored twice over.

One, I have no part-time job to fill in the idle hours and two, I can't go out with friends anyway. Even if it's really really really really important meetings with friends whom I didn't go out with for so effing long, they seem sort of surreal now. WTH man, I NEED A JOB D:

I've been thinking of this thought for weeks now and since I'm suffering from insomnia again and since no one will read this anyway, so, what the heck.

When you prayed to Him for wisdom, did anyone of us figured or even have the tiniest slight notion that it'll be painful? When we all hope to be wiser and smarter, do we even expect that the experiences or insights you learn will be hurtful? The fact is we don't.
Subconciously, we all expect whatever we asked for to be served on a silver platter, garnished, decorated beautifully and flawlessly.
In church and cell, people always pray for wisdom. Non-Christians too pray for their grandchildren or children to be bright and etc.

Everyone hopes for enlightenment in their various ways or in no particular way whasoever. Kay, the difference is like, some people facing their personal problems hope for enlightenment in these problems which is still okay while others don't even know what they are expecting and just ask and hope for wisdom to fall on them, land nicely on their lap in a neat parcel.

The point is this. But did it ever fugging occur to any fugging one that it'll (so-called wisdom, etc) come painfully? It's not so grand or heartwarmingly poignant as if romantic harp music will start to play somewhere the moment your enlightenment or wisdom or whatever shit hits you. It's not like, some inner light bulb within you will start to glow proudly at its achievement. It all boils down to the perception of reality versus illusion. Imo. :/

Nothing really shocks me any more. I just fully realised this -- and accepted it, albeit half-heartedly.

I think I won't be shocked if my O's results suck like crap.
I think I half-expected that I can't make it to a good jc nor my desired poly course in Mass Com.
I think I won't be taken aback, blown off by the huge impact, if history repeats itself.

I think I won't be surprised or anything if I end off this year with less than what I already had when I started this year.

Previously I thought that I might what to die young, like, in my fifties. And thats the latest already.
I think I want to die in my thirties now. HAHAHA random :D

2009-12-09T13:28:00.000+08:00

I think my motto in life shall be MUST DRINK COFFEE (especially if I'm going out).
So that I won't board the wrong bus and won't be late and won't get lost in some industrial labyrinth and won't be labelled the bad person who ruins others' plans like I was yesterday.
So that I would have, could have been more tactful like today.

I'm not angry. Though, who won't feel sian-ed when one's in my shoes?
I think someone is pissed at me though..... :/ This time, I won't say sorry, I guess.

ANYWAYS, I found a new reason to love YouTube 'cause it really cheers you up fast. :D (Though, he helped to make me feel better too. lol)

I found lots of videos of Christmas-y songs.
I think ALL malls, shops etc should play these types of X'mas songs instead of the typical Jingle Bells and Rudolph. (yeah, I spelled his name wrongly :x)

This "acapella" style of song is so quirky and cute :D

I heard this on the radio(:
"Na, na, na, na, feels like Christmas~~" :D

I think she composed this herself. A bit Indie, but mellowly pleasant(:

THIS ONE IS RETARDED. HAHA.
I got the chorus stuck in my younger brother's head.
It's tongue-in-cheek yet at the same time, it's rationally true. lol :D :D :D

"If snowmen came alive, that's creepy~~ If Santa Claus came to my housek, that's creepy~~"

I don't like squeaky Alvin-and-the-chipmunks kind of singing but this is an exception :D

I refuse to bake anything anymore D:

2009-12-03T23:41:00.003+08:00

#1. I woke up today, inspired and motivated to bake cookies :D (I've been baking a lot recently :D).

BUT.

#2. THERE WERE A BLOODY FUGGING LOT OF COCKROACHES IN THE BLOODY KITCHEN LIKE OMG EW EW EW EW
I've to explain. They decided to uh, "gas" the rubbish chute today and the (bloody fugging) roaches were in their (bloody stupid) attempt to escape the toxic fumes.
Yi Poh says I sound like the exterminators wanted to gas the roaches as if they were "gassing the Jews". -.-

#3. Was supposed to go out today with Christine and clique but didn't. I started regretting it yesterday and will stop regretting it when I die.

#4. I was so pissed with my younger brother (don't ask) that I ~~threw~~ flung my phone with vehement strength fueled by exasperation on the unforgiving hard, wooden floor... Now my phone has an internal injury. I'M SERIOUS o___o
My phone has a black scratch/scar inside the screen. And when the screen is black (like, sleep mode or whatever you call it. you just don't touch your phone for half a minute), the scar would be a striking white, like a streak of lightning.
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COOL RIGHT!! xD

HAHAH.
My phone is miraculously still working though. :X

I'll try to take pictures of it tomorrow for the heck of it :D

2009-12-03T11:35:00.003+08:00

I was just thinking of Hiro with his plans and high goals all laid out in the future... .__.

I'm super impressed and astonished but also quite ahh...how to put it... "jealous" in a sense. :l

My plans for the future stops at the poly/jc phase of my life. And its not even touching on the whole of the 1st year of it. It merely pauses at the "OMG-What-Am-I-Going-To-Do" part of the next phase of my life.

AND SO, my awesome deduction of the route I 've planned for myself (despite its short-termed-ness) is this:

If I'm going to JC, I would pick Meridian over other JCs.
Or deliberately find a JC that is not that awesome and be the female-Vincent Oh-type-of-genius there. :D
I would dread Temasek JC (sorry to those aiming for it or are already there)
'cause (A) my seniors told me its boring there .__. ,
(B) my mum wants me to go there so it's sort of a bad omen and/or
(C) the school even looks boring, with its red brick school buildings.

I love the rustic look that red-brick buildings have but it looks weird for a school ._.
Ya I'm being biased and judgemental but whatever :D

If I'm going to JC, it must be one with a really good guitar ensemble CCA so that I can show off my guitar plucking skills ('cause I suck at strumming). :D :D :D

If I'm going to POLY, I would go for Mass Comm and fall in love with the English language again. <3

Ya, thats my awesome plan with its intricate details and brimming with unenthusiastic hope for the next one year of my life.

-megawatt grins-

My younger brother (the 10-year-old one) keeps playing the beginning part of Amarath by Nightwish on the piano over and over again.
Surprisely, I'm not irritated with that because I'm still not over the bewildered amazement how he learned it from scratch from YouTube. :O

It sounds like this:

I can't wait till he learns the full song :D

2009-11-28T14:18:00.002+08:00

Today I was woken up at an unearthly time (considering it IS the holidays, plus, it's after the dreaded O's) ---9.30am --- by Clare Cheng =.= Is there such a word as "woken"?? .__.

Today is the TK Open House, which I really didn't know our school actually hosted. I only knew 'cause Siyuan had to go back to help out.
To be painfully honest, the Open House sucked to the max. I wanted to take pics with my juniors but they were all MIA. To represent the 6 UGs, were the 6 UG leaders sharing one booth o.o" Plus, the so-called Open House was held in 5 classrooms. That was it and nothing else. To say it's a small-scale event is a total understatement. It was absolutely dull D:

Let's hope no TK teachers or the principal sees this XD

I'm going to upload songs that are in the nostalgic graduation mood -- except for the typical 'Graduation' song by Vitamin C.
"Yesterday" by Leona Lewis is a much nicer song than the above :D

Kay, apparently all the lyrics sites I went to forbid you to copy and paste the lyrics =.= Or maybe it's just my computer being retarded.

2009-11-22T17:59:00.004+08:00

In the nostalgic mood of graduation, I've uploaded the song "Where Are You Now?" by Honor Society.
It is fitting for the occasion. :D
The song is from the movie Band Slam though I didn't watch it. .__.

I made the colour of the player Royal Blue. My favourite colour recently :D Clare seems irked by my royal blue obsession >:D

The colour blue can represent coldness and sadness, a poignant colour that sums up my current mood, though I wasn't feeling this down before this colour obsession started :D The shade of royal blue seems dull yet bright. To me, its like, being dull on one side yet having this facade of brightness. Yeah, I'm being all literature-ish now. :D

Shall upload prom pics some time later. I'm just lazy to tag people. ^-^v

2009-11-22T17:39:00.005+08:00

It's been aeons since I last updated. The major "events" that has happened since I uploaded are...
- END OF O'S (duh)
- Guides Farewell Party
- Crazy last minute shopping (ended up with a dress I didn't like)
- Prom nite
- Hiro's leaving Singapore ):

Anyways, I don't think he'll see this but I wish him all the best :D
He has this pleasant, friendly, helpful yet slightly quirky character so I'm sure he'll fit in anywhere :D
The following video is in honor of TatsuHiro :D

Wait till 2:18! It's worth it :D
That one second is so typical of Hiro.
If I had videoed moments during Emaths lessons, I would have uploaded them. Typical Halilah vs. Hiro squabbles never get old :D

I won't upload any photos today or at least not now 'cause I'm lazy. Heh. Plus, it's troublesome to upload pictures on blogger :/
Maybe I'll try Xanga or something, just to fill up my time :D
I'm still trying to get a part-time job :D

I look horrible for prom. 1) I just don't like my dress. I was forced to buy it last min due to time constraints. ugh.!! 2) Hate the stiff curly hair. Damn hair dresser armed with a sticky hair spray. ):

I hate see-sawing emotions. That familiar wave of a turmoil of emotions is coming back to me. But this time, it's all different people involved for different reasons. Nevertheless, it's not any less hurtful.

2009-10-18T17:44:00.002+08:00

This blog is so dead but what the heck. Really cute video. :D

JIAYOUS EVERYONE FOR O's :D
Think of all the stuff we can do after these 4 weeks :D

I can hear the ecstatic screams already.

2009-09-28T19:45:00.002+08:00

My older brother (15) doesn't sleep in his room because the maid sleeps there and hates turning on the aircon so he sleeps on a mattress in my air-conditioned room. Now that my younger brother (10) has a proper bed in the other room, both brothers can sleep there together (sounds damn gay.)

SO.
My older brother is now officially moving ~~house~~ room.

Even though I have the whole room to myself now (I mean, this room has always been mine), I feel more depressed than euphoric.

Today marks the day when my relationship with my older brother starts to diminish.

I'll miss the retarded things we do when we can't sleep.
Etc, just two nights ago, I woke him up 'cause of a (fcking huge) cockroach. :D !!
It was at 4am. :D

Fck. Now I'll be sleeping alone in my room. ):
So pathetically lonely. ):

2009-09-13T16:35:00.002+08:00

Everyone's blog is dead or cancelled
or I just didn't bother to find their new blogs. =X

I. MUST. FINISH. SS. PAPER. TMR. D:<

I'll never forgive myself if I don't. Seriously.

For the first time in all upper sec life, I'm studying THREE SS themes instead of one (and a half). So I just HAVE to finish. No excuses.

Yay feeling inspired. :D

Then I think of all the subjects and that inspired feeling is diminished.

If I were my guitar, I would hate me. Poor thing abandoned in the guitar case for months. I only just realised I've stopped practising. :X

2009-09-10T08:27:00.003+08:00

There're many links there at the right side............but many leading to dead or deleted blogs. x_x

Why am I even updating my blog when according to Joyce's countdown, there's only 45 more days to O's to go? D:

This time next year, I'll hate myself for either not studying hard enough. Or wasting my time studying so hard (instead of chilling out 'cause JC will be on many levels worse than O's). :O

I love the internet these days. Not that I never liked it before or anything.
It just that time never seems to move on the internet. Everything is still the same here like every other day albeit the clock on the comp indicating otherwise. HMMM! .___.

Because of the internet, time seems so slow 'cause to me, it doesn't SEEM to move on the internet, 'cause everything is pretty much the same. Its like......some digital, virtual Neverland thing.
Yet ironically, the internet shows how fast time flies too. Like how Joyce's blog's clock shows that. omg. freaky x______x

2009-09-09T01:15:00.002+08:00

Talking to my brother:

Me: HanFei, how to spell "caffeine"?

Bro: I duno..

Bro:...

Bro: Isn't it on your coffee (can)?

Me: OHH. YA HUH XD

bored.
high on caffeine.
shopping-spreeing on Friends For Sale on fb.
just doing this for the sake of it.
stomach ache.
anticipating worser eyebags.
stomach still aching.
stupid coffee.
guilty pang.
didn't study.
ss book glaring at me now.
still aching.
wth am i doing.
gaaaaaah!

2009-08-29T18:18:00.001+08:00

The blogspot thing looks weird now. lols.
Anyways, I think all the electronic stuff in my house sucks now.

1# I've to take out my phone battery then re-on it to reply smses, after every other sms I receieved. GOSH. soo anoying.
I'm using my uber old phone coz I lost the newer one in a cab. =.=

2# My comp got some virus now (and my dad refuses to help me fix it D:).
Best of all, I didn't know that my dad got an anti-virus software. Simply 'cause, no one told me. Duh. My older bro is supposed to help me download it. But he gave some bullshidd reason that he thought it was already downloaded 'cause halfway through the downloading process, someone offed my computer, so he just assumed that the programme is already downloaded. GAWD. D: D: D:
And and and, he very helpfully passed me the anti-virus software box, AFTER my computer already got the virus. like, wow man.

3# Since my computer got virused, I pestered my dad to lend me his other laptop which I had to painstakingly download everything. Msn, audi, windows media player etc etc. =.= And since audi was taking aeons to load, I went to copy-and-paste the audi programme from another comp to my thumbdrive.

First, the thumbdrive had not enough space. So I had to start over.
Then, the thumbdrive somehow got disconnected. So I had to start over.
Then, the thumbdrive STILL did not have enough space. So I had to start over.
Then, its taking even longer to load into my thumbdrive. urrrrrrghhh.

ENOUGH RANTING D:

Oh btw, I got awesome chinese o lvl results. Just simply terrific to the max.

Not. bleah. bored ):

2009-07-16T23:02:00.001+08:00

I've been listening to (really sweet) chinese songs and some korean songs recently. I forgot how typical english boybands sound like.

Heard on 91.3 that Boys Like Girls is having a new album soon :D

Downloads galore XD

2009-07-15T20:40:00.009+08:00

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY WJ :D

Presents :D

There was even a spider D: How thoughtful...

The guys (JiaXun, Tyson, SoonKiat, WeiJie, Louis, Hiro, Kenneth) either randomly picked salmon sushi covered by a plate on top (so they can't see which one is spammed with wasabi) or had to draw the shortest stick. The loser had to swallow the sushi with literally a tablespoon of wasabi o_O

sorry lex ): haha. so blurred XD

Didnt take picture of the other presents. haha

Then we went to play pool :D

@ Sakae:
Rachel
Louis
Kenneth
SoonKiat
JiaXun
Wei Jie (duh.)
Tyson
Jael
HuiJin
Greg
Tim
Chris
Hiro
Wilmar
Shandy
Kevin
Alex
Calvin Cher
GuoJun
Ebenezer

Did I miss anyone else? =X

At Pool. Almost everyone. haha. lazy to type more XD

The above was to create an illusion of a well-organized, long, time-consuming post :D :D :D

Enjoy the videos! :D

(I SO DID UPDATE! :D)

Im so sorry that they're so blurry =X

Saved the best for last :D

2009-07-06T14:22:00.003+08:00

I was blog hopping. Came randomly to Joyce's blog and it reminded me about Monday's AYG Torch Relay thing that came to TK (by shuttle bus) as the last stop. Yeah I know its late to update on this. :D

We were all in the hall. The Sec4s who had nothing better to do but to hang around to watch (not compulsory for us D:) sat in the gallery :D

No pics because all of the pictures I took were so blur. ugh.

At first, three AYG participants were holding a (pathetic-looking) rectangular candle lamp thing. We all thought that was the torch O_o hahhaha.

Then the real torch came in. Oh the 'enthusiasm' was contagious. =X

As the torch came in, from up in the gallery in the school hall, Rachel (Lim CY) said, "Now if we all blow really hard..."

xD

2009-07-06T14:16:00.003+08:00

I didn't sleep the whole night.

This was what I did to kill time.. Watching stupid videos below XD

OMG. kept laughing even though I watched it three times already. XD

YES I KNOW its damn lame. :D

I think its the combination of caffine and flou medicine that don't work. It makes me laugh like a retarded person and now I got a headache. Though the headache wasn't from the laughing.

If I get really really bored later, (I mean besides doing homework or study or the summary notebook for geog e.)
I'll...
1. Facebook.
2. Try out Twitter.
3. Play Guitar.
4. Make Death Cert for my blog :D
5. Go see doc and look really really pathetic. Then I'll
6. Get an MC :D

yesh I just expanded one thing to 5 and 6. Im bored D:

2009-07-06T06:38:00.002+08:00

Now H1N1 is around, you won't want to get flu... unless you like people chasing you away and grounding you at home for 7 whole days =X

DON'T take Lempsip Max Cold & Flu Capsules. Because I'm living proof that it doesn't frigging work. =.=
It's been 12 hours. I took the medicine twice, 2 pills each time. And I still have flu. T-T

I used like, half a box of tissues already.
That's ~100 pieces of tissue kay D:

ARGH.!!! D:

I didn't sleep the whole night. woots. =.=
Maybe I'll learn how to cover up eyebags with concealer from a gay guy on YouTube. XD
(I'm not insulting him. There're many good male make-up artists but this guy whose video I watched was really really gay[in the modern sense of the word] )
(I didn't even talk about the video of the guy I saw putting purple eyeshadow for himself yet.)

(oops.)

HEH. I'm frigging bored. Waiting... ):

The sun is rising now :D yay :D

2009-06-18T12:10:00.001+08:00

I shall attempt to revive my facebook account now. Hahaha.

2009-06-18T11:51:00.001+08:00

i'm so effing bored D:

2009-06-08T01:54:00.004+08:00

'If you were a moth' is my uber funny, terribly-missed primary school friend, Chua XIN NING :D :D :D

'feesh :b' is none other than me :D

------------------------

If you were a moth says:
i know what you like..
feesh :b says:
duno why
feesh :b says:
XD
If you were a moth says:
HAMSTERS!
If you were a moth says:
hahhhahaha
feesh :b says:
o.o?
feesh :b says:
YAY
If you were a moth says:
like forever can
feesh :b says:
hahahahha
feesh :b says:
:D
If you were a moth says:
and i hate them
feesh :b says:
oei!
If you were a moth says:
i hate animals
feesh :b says:
D:!
feesh :b says:
gasp.
If you were a moth says:
except for reptiles
feesh :b says:
how could you
If you were a moth says:
damn cool!
If you were a moth says:
hahahah why cannot
feesh :b says:
i'll convert you to a animal-lover now
If you were a moth says:
hamsters makes me cry la!

feesh :b says:
HAHAHA
feesh :b says:
why
If you were a moth says:
you animal-lover meh>
feesh :b says:
erm. sort of
If you were a moth says:
ok wait,answer this question:
feesh :b says:
hahahahah
If you were a moth says:
DO YOU EAT MEAT?
feesh :b says:
-.-
feesh :b says:
eh
feesh :b says:
yes
If you were a moth says:
ouuuh i think you do
If you were a moth says:
i saw you eat lemon chicken rice ok!
feesh :b says:
-.-!
If you were a moth says:
and we ate together
feesh :b says:
lol?!
feesh :b says:
so?
If you were a moth says:
you are so NOT animal-lover
If you were a moth says:
hahahah
feesh :b says:
then cannot like animals mehh?
feesh :b says:
no link can!
feesh :b says:
hahahah
If you were a moth says:
whats the point of loving them when youre still gonna eat them
If you were a moth says:
~~eiiiiiiyyyyyyyyyerrrrrrr yuyi eats hamster~~
If you were a moth says:
yuck
feesh :b says:
O_O"
feesh :b says:
haha
feesh :b says:
hmmmmmm
feesh :b says:
hmmm
feesh :b says:
you love your mum right?
feesh :b says:
but you dont eat your mum XD
If you were a moth says:
wait i dont eat her!!!!!!
feesh :b says:
HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA
If you were a moth says:
but i eat the food she cook
If you were a moth says:
but i do bite my sister
If you were a moth says:
hahahha
feesh :b says:
o.o
feesh :b says:
your poor sis...
feesh :b says:
sayang...
feesh :b says:
hahahah
If you were a moth says:
she lick me can!
If you were a moth says:
so i bite her la
If you were a moth says:
hahhaha
feesh :b says:
eww!
feesh :b says:
hahahaha
feesh :b says:
you dip yourself in choc or sth? why she lick you?
feesh :b says:
HAHA
If you were a moth says:
because im like super sweet can!

this was just 15min ago? :D hahaha.

thats her beloved seaweed chicken XD

2009-05-26T02:24:00.005+08:00

I can't sleep. D:
I'm watching Britain's Got Talent now. HAHAHA.
It's actually quite nice to watch. Funny :D

I think Sue Son, a very talented violinist, has potential. :D She did ditch her best friend to continue on the show though :X :X :X

Susan Boyle is incredible but still, she should comb her hair. gosh. :X

And there's also a pretty cool street dance group called Diversity. I think their ages are from 13 to 20 sth. Cool clique. o_o Haha :D

Weird people actually made it to the BGT Semi-Finals. (ahem 'Darth Jackson' ahem) I think its on purpose. O.o Like, they were deliberately allowed to go for the semi-finals then they are going to get their feelings cheated coz its really obvious they are C.M.I and get eliminated. o.o"

I didn't follow the latest American Idol but after watching one video of Adam Lambert's duet with the band KISS, I was O_O ...eww. Like, too exaggerated. But American Idol is over already so I'm just lagging hahahaha :D

I just remembered I haven't done chinese mock paper yet =X

I saw a cockroach outside my room, in the living room. ew ew ew. I spammed insecticide at it and actually apologized to my brother's hamsters beside where I sprayed the smelly can. I think the hamsters hate me for polluting the air around their cage now D:

Can you imagine something so cute hating you? ><"
HAHA :D

2009-05-25T23:08:00.006+08:00

There's a very faint rainbow...but a rainbow all the same(:

BORED.

ONE. Chinese O Levels (gasp) are on next Monday. I only hope that I can actually finish all the papers ><" zzzzz!

TWO. I'm going to shave a certain someone's head. Really I will..when I graduate from TK. >:) Hint: everyone in TK agrees his hair is ugly. :X

THREE. There was Sec4 Inter-class Netball competition today. There was some unfairness and disappointment. But on a more positive note, 'who cares?' :D

Oh ya. My computer is finally fixed. Woots :D
But I'm actually not used to using a computer all of a sudden o.o

FOUR. Quote of the day: "I am going to embarress myself."
Oh the irony. XD

FIVE. Korean guys should not attempt singing Mariah Carey songs, e.g, 'Touch My Body'. Hahahah. Esther (koh) should know what I mean :D

SIX. HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHI TING ;D <3!
Kudos to Arsal and S.T's primary school friends for organizing the surprise birthday party last friday. Fun :D

SEVEN. Anyone willing to trade a new, unused thermometer for a workable school calculator? Random thought. ._________.""

EIGHT. My brother (15) is a nerd. A health nerd and/or fanatic. It's both admirable and freakish at the same time. XD

NINE. This is an appeal for people to send me songs on msn :D :D :D I can give you a cookie!! :D :D :D

TEN. I'm still bored D: Hahaha.

2009-04-14T20:29:00.000+08:00

This blog is dead for so long that no one bothers to tag D:
I want my alive and kicking comp back!!! D: My brother's one is so painstakingly slow. -.- I could go mug all the subjects for O lvls now and by the time Im done with big big eye bags, it will still be lagging. Awesome o.o"

We're having tests almost every week D: rawr! Ytd was Chem and today there was Lit and Geog E. Its a wonder no one fainted yet ._. Oh ya. Im super uber happy with Chem paper ytd :D One of the few rarest of rare times I finished the stupid paper :D But all were senseless answers =X ahhh anyway I finished it! fullstop. No one shall burst my happy chem bubble ^^ lalala!

Heh. bored now. Im high on watermeleon juice. I think there's caffine in it. HAHAHA random shite.

My younger bro was damn irritating. No. Irritating is an understatement! D: He keeps doing stupid childish stuff just to piss me off. Then my older bro was also pissed and hit him lightly then the shorter brother decided to follow wherever we go around the house just so he could fart in our presence. Ugh. D:
And ytd the same short brother complained that my mum bought expired choc milk. The date read '30DEC09' -.- And my brother was like,
"Yeah. Thats last year what."
On responding my WTH look, he said
"Its 2010 now!"

Im still divided on whether I should be incredibly pissed at him or incredibly amazed at his ability to live in the future. seriously man. -.-

Im bored D:
But Im so happy :D I found a nice website for all the guitar chords + variations on how to play.
If only I had been a little bit twit.. the website is www.chordie.com
retarded name-.- haha but happy :D

There's no tests tomorrow :D save for english which you can't study for :D

2009-04-07T21:15:00.002+08:00

Im bored! D:

Im not getting baptised after all :x

Im having a mind block now.

Im in need of someone to send me songs :D wahahah. :D

Im thinking of the past and it irritates me. Everyone is thinking about the future (hello? JC or poly?) but my mind is in the past. Awesome. -.-

Im sick of accidental meetings. seriously.

Im missing my dad already. He's overseas now :l

Im researching on International Friendship Day now. Apparently S'pore is in its own imagined calender because it decided to bring forwarded IFD to 15 April instead of 3 August o.o"

Im a bit ashamed of this post. hahah. lalala~

Siyuan! Get well soon :D

2009-03-20T22:42:00.003+08:00

To make up for the rotten deadness of this blog, I've just changed the skin! H ooray ._.
Thinking about changing it to myspace though.. Hmmm..We shall see eh?

My own computer crashed and my ~~lazy~~ 'busy' dad didnt want to even try to see whats the prob. :l So I'm alternating between using my brothers' and dad's computers till ~~my dad stops playing maple~~ further notice. HAHA.
Til then my blog may continue to be dead.
I don't think anyone reads this anymore anyway. D:

Sec4 life is hectic and draining. D: March hols don't make one feel rested :l bleah.
I strongly urge all sec1s and 2s to slack and play while they can! D: Haha.

Hmm..I want to go rollerblading. and I feel like playing guitar now.
My bro says I should skate and play at the same time o.o"
Weirdo.
I've been spelling 'weird' as 'wierd' for ages. lol o.o

---
God didn't promise us a perfect, easy life but He promised to be there for us. I hope that's enough(:

2009-01-13T21:00:00.002+08:00

And my dad just came in to scream at me about ~~a piece of paper~~ my phone bill for Dec. ~~Friggin roaming service thingy-.-"~~ Ugh. X2

I. Hate. P___ts.
(I know other guides will agree)
No points for guessing. (:

2009-01-13T20:52:00.002+08:00

Yes, I know my blog is dead.
Yes, I know I shouldn't even try to revive it.
Yes, I know I should be spending my time elsewhere.
Yes, I know I should be so not doing Holiday homework in the second week of school.

Ugh.

And if anyone asks me one more friggin time, I'll tell them I got hit by a truck or am allergic to chickens. :D
And my dad is the sweetest guy ever <3! :D
And I miss him loads.
And he was M.I.A from 28dec till yesterday.
And now he's leaving friggin tomorrow. again. T-T
And I'll miss him alot alot again.

And this is like a poem :D

HAPPY BELATED BDAY WILMAR :D

HAPPY BDAY SHANDY :D

"Ooh" :D

2009-01-04T08:57:00.002+08:00

The shopping in china sucks. Did i mention that already? >:l
And I don't have the sweets for you guys anymore-.- bugger. long story. sorry T-T

First day of school is surreal. :l
I haven't really confirmed whether I like Miss Tan or not. yet. :X She's the new guide's teacher who's taking over Banana who hopped over to Dance club. gosh. To think I used to dislike Banana ._." Cm misses her like a fat kid misses choc. XD
When siyuan told me Ms Razi is one of the new guides teachers, I thought she said Mrs Rizal. XD!

I saw a small kid at the arcade some days ago, maybe about my younger brother's age. He had a pierced ear and was acting cool and everything. I keep thinking that he'll become like someone else I used to know...

This blog is dead because my comp chose to abandon me at this awesome time. The beginning of the year when I need to rush homework and stuff-.-
By right, I should type that since its the beginning of the year, Im going to start right bla bla. but right now, I think the world is __ed up enough for me to intervene.

Wake me up after 24hours X no. of days left of '09

2008-12-22T23:36:00.003+08:00

EDITED:
I've bought melamine-filled sweets for you guys ;D WAHAHA ;D
~~And tomorrow we'll be going shopping!! :D~~
Contary to popular belief, the shopping in China truly sucks. Even though everything is made there. Sucks sucks sucks. And they give you the wrong sweets with disgusting flavours like garlic sweet ( D:< ! ) and you can't do a thing about it unless you fly back to demand a refund.

We went to XiaMen ytd to visit my "ancestral hometown".
At first it was all quite cool because back then, during my great-great-grandfather's time, my family was stinking rich. o.o" to think now Im struggling with my weekly allowance. Feck. It was quite cool(: The village was something like in half-ruins.. imagine rural brick walls and really really sharp glass fragments to keep off robbers and perverts.. XD
and the so-called 'family house' is quite ornated with nice details and stuff (which is very expensive to do in the past). ~~Pics from my dad another day^^~~ I won't see my dad again till Jan 12. ughhh so no pics!! D:

Anyway, there're still people living in the village. and my very very distant relatives kept pestering us for donations of ~~few thousands. gosh. ><"~~ a thousand yuan per person who visited. we had 17 people in our family who went. GOSH D:

Im typing all this now to convince my mum that im not 'wasting time chatting' and really improving my english and typing skills O.o

Im in BeiJing ~~now~~. (Back in SG :D) which my older bro says its the 'Land of Cups and Gold'
pronounce BeiJing slowly :D haha

gtg now. bye(:
<3!

2008-12-21T07:51:00.000+08:00

will be MIA in China from 21-26 dec.
bye
ciao
^^

2008-12-07T11:09:00.002+08:00

^ Omygosh. Im so frigging jealous D:

And in the video "Breathe" by Michelle Branch, she threw the guitar to the sea :o
when she could have just given it to me!! D:<

2008-12-05T23:38:00.001+08:00

HELLO CLARE CHENG ;D

I know you'll be seeing this XD

p.s.: I love Michelle Branch. Her accent and all. XD

2008-11-26T08:40:00.004+08:00

I shall celebrate my several-weeks-long recluse from my computer with a downloading-spree :D
And wth. The song ('I Remember' by Keyshia Cole) is only playing for 30 secs D:

And wtheck. My plans to wake my brother(14) up were ruined. His friend called him so I threw a pillow in his face and that was it. No thrill! ):<

I feel bad. Because I couldn't find anyone to accompany me to go rollerblading with guides from other schools at downtown east today, I told the guides I got grounded just so I don't have to go with them :X Met them at (hand motions " ") "International Guides Camp" last year and I only message about 10times per year to one of them. ._." So it will be soo awkward hanging out with almost complete strangers right? :x
I think Im just trying to lessen my guilt.. :x

2008-11-24T16:53:00.003+08:00

I missed work attachment because Guides camp is on the first 3 days of the work attachment.
And Banana won't even give me a chance then to persuade her. It was a flat down NO. D: And I can't go for the work attachment 'cause the zoo people didn't want half attendance or something like that. And And And..I just found out from St's blog that the work attachment only started on Wed and the camp ended on Wed T-T

In short you poor eejits who didn't get it: It was a totally wasted opportunity D:

Maybe I'll rant about the camp later.
Shite. Time flies. ):
You don't have to confuse yourself with the itallics paragraph.

Like I said, time flies. but then again, even though its just 2 to 3 weeks since (blank), i feel like 2 months have passed. i just cannot close that curtain.

I think Keyshia Cole is a talented but not-famous-enough singer. (:

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Fidee} Ya. Very very vain. hahaha XD He wanted my old nail buffer XD

Vincent} Thanks for pointing out my typo =x and Im not vain! D:

Luchi} Buffing nails.. is um..simply making the nail shinier and smoother. And, ahem, it's not vain (: And I've 2 brothers. yeah. (:

Kevin} o.o? That was very random. Hahaha. XD

2008-11-10T14:52:00.000+08:00

im buffing my younger bro's nails! XD

2008-11-05T17:50:00.003+08:00

Driven by boredom, we took a vanity test(so-called).
My brother(14) is only 18% vain (D:!) and Im 41% vain. O.O
@*&^%$#

The world is upside-down/bananas/weird ._."
Like how ytd st was zi-highing (louis and vincent don't know what zi-high means :o ) after 3 cups of coffee. Haha.
And how she tried to take picture of a phrase on the back of a book at least 20times (I think).

Right now my younger brother(9) is crying about not being able to do some jumping quest on Maple and it's my dad to the rescue. But he(I mean my dad) just fell down(I mean his character) for the 3rd time while I was watching his heroism displayed in how he tapped his fingers on the keyboard.

I just realised I've been using ( )s alot ._."

2008-11-02T22:53:00.002+08:00

Great. My mum--at the very least she could do, after usurping the more experienced hairdresser for herself and leaving me with the Noob Shite one-- bought me 6 new hairclips-.-"
On the bright side (illuminated by a single, faulty, flickering bulb=.=), I could clip up my (now what seems to be a masterpiece-hair cut-by-a-5year-old D:)fringe with the new hairclips (and look extremely toot)
I can't think of anything else to describe toot now. UGH.

You really don't have to read the itallics part. Really.

Gosh she was friggin brought the scissors so close to my eyes so i closed my eyes on reflex, as a precautionary measure and how was i to know she'll do such a horrendous thing to my hair. UGH. i could feel the cold metal of the entire length of scissors against my forehead and for one really mad moment i thought she'll cut my eyebrows too (!) and she cut my fringe one entire inch shorter than what i indicated. ughhhh. plus she kept cutting it shorter and shorter so that my fringe will "slant to one side" but it doesnt freaking stay on ANY side at all. it now just stubbornly stays in the middle, one side longer than the other. goaash. im bringing a cap tmr. ARGH.

After 6 hours I still can't get over it. Humour me awhile. -.-
My dad was super encouraging when I ranted to him about my hair cut...

ohyea. happy bday michelle (3c'o8) :D
and belated belated bdays to louis and vincent :D

I cant use my own com for the past few days. D:

2008-10-23T14:11:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was super hilariously embarrassing =x
Hahahah.
I miss 3c classroom T-T ...and the convenience of the girl's toilet on the same floor ><" Please don't my pms/crankiness these few days.. :x Tired tired tired. of so many things. bleah :x Last day of school today....my (size 6) foot. Truncated lessons start tmr. D: Gosh. Evil school board.
Now that we have our annual year book, lets deface the evillll school board! >:D

Yesh, there's Guides later at 3 -.-" We played limbo with skipping ropes the last time. lol XD
Clare looks cute in year book^^ in the kuku way XD

Ohya, WATCH :D

2008-10-21T20:31:00.004+08:00

"This is the last straw that broke the camel's back."

haha.. x.x

Shout out to ONG SIYUAN and CLARISSA CHENG :D

Thank You!

love you two to bits kay :D

truly thank god for having you two with me today (:

2008-10-16T19:33:00.003+08:00

How could I forget?? D:
21) 3c'o8 was the only class to have no failures for English :D WOOTS :D
22) And we had a MSG of <4 :D double woots yo :D

23)Umm..what does MSG stand for? o.o"
24) I stayed home today and probably don't have to type a letter 'cause Mrs.N is also absent from school XD haha
25) My brothers and I made a banner for my dad to welcome him home from his overseas trip. Haha XD His flight was postponed for 4days later to today. =x 4days more without his mpale-rush. hahaha :D
26) I feel like just not going to school for the rest of the year. XD

2008-10-15T18:05:00.003+08:00

Hmm.. I didn't realise that I've passed at least a week without using my com. o.o"

So lately,
1) Kenneth sucks. But its not lately. Its always. (: but just that today more so. stupid drawing-.- grumbles.

2) My brown phone spoiled. D: the screen totally cmi already. hahah.

3) Today I went to EastPoint to get it fixed with St and Esther. The sony ericson place was almost like a polyclinic ._." I made a totally wasted trip 'cause I couldn't find the stupid sony ericson stall the last time-.- And its friggin' big -.-" Today was the second time I went there. Complete waste of time zzz..

4) The lady at the counter noted my phone.
"Got scratchs on your phone."
"Yeah I know =x "
"And on your screen -.-"
"Yeah I know"
"And dents"
"Yeah I know -.-"" Don't remind me."

I mean like, wth D:

5) I didn't fail Lit :D :D :D C.Koh said she was proud of me (._.") and I couldn't bear to tell her I did so much better this time ('cause she asked me how I did it =x ) because I read through the exact same essay notes she took the question from ><"

6) Apparently a sec2 friend got A1 by studying my Lit notes from last year XD cool,eh? :D

7) I got exact same marks as Rach for Chi o.o"

8) I can say goodbye to my holiday allowance. -.-

9) I'm like, 25c rich :D HAHA

10) I've a sudden urge to slap someone. Anyone.

11) Contemplating slapping kenneth.

12) Bored. I read some very vague article some days ago about getting rid of boredom by being constantly curious ._. and the guy who told the journalist that learnt 5 languages. Crazy imba faggot ._.

13) HMMMM.. lets think. Why do chickens cross the road? XD

14) Maybe cause like, they're black...camouflage with the tar road.. :D

15) Mrs K (Amaths) thought I was Shimin O.o"

16) Both Shimin and I are innocent :D and Kenneth is a sabotager.

17) Gosh I can't afford to be more curious and open-minded. My brains will fall out.

18) Headache now ><"

19) I just told my 14yr old bro not to eat dinner out. Eat at home, pple! :D Its lesser in fat, MSG-free and most importantly, melamine-free :D

20) Tagore owned in Chess during the House Games thingy. Just so you know :D

2008-10-02T16:50:00.001+08:00

I can't find my usb cable ):
But I found this ^^

Just say 'awwww' and move on to tagboard(:

2008-09-27T16:06:00.006+08:00

My blog has been quiet for too long. :l

Songs in playlist now:

Fences, Paramore.
The song that inspired someone to create this blogskin.
~~edited: that blogskin was so screwed up. aww D:~~ yay its fixed^^
I miss listening to Paramore songs ): Hope their album comes out soon :D

Best of Me, Sum 41.
Farhan2 reminded me of this song ytd. apparently he only heard it recently or sth. lag(:

Even If, Sam Concepcion.
He's filipino but I don't think he looks like one. The song is so cliche and cheesy but his voice is nice. Plus, he won some idol contest thing. And he's 16 o.o

2008-09-27T14:35:00.004+08:00

random pics of the month(:

:D inside joke :D

Its blur :x
Its the Periodic Table which if you notice, the last atom has the atomic number 103. so its like a continuation:
104- Am, Arsalmium
105- Hm, Hiromium
106- 2Am, Alexmium
107- Haim, Hairimium

Get it? :D

3C Periodic Table :D
We should draw a neater one :l haha
And someone pointed out that there's one Group short :x

Picture deleted. But will be replaced(: <

I'll stand accused/With my hand on my heart/I'm just trying to say... I'm sorry

2008-09-21T11:14:00.005+08:00

FrostWire is the supposed better version of LimeWire.
and when you start the FrostWire thing, this starting picture is literally wire and frozen water. Like, O.o

I think Pahchee's wife just asked me who am I on Msn. O.o to the max.
But yeah, I forgot to wish Pahchee Happy Teachers' day. So maybe he's sending his wife to remind us/ freak us out and make us guilty. Or maybe he wants to know if vtan finally changed his hairdo yet XD

Im going to mug for eoys. This time Im really really sure that I'll study.
Then I'll piss off ____ and ____. YAY ;D
yeah that sounds like fun :D

Or I could mug and freak my dad out. Then he might pay me extra cash to persuade me to stop studying or sth. :D

Or maybe I could bug Vincent and etc smart ass people so my marks will be inexorably higher :D yay :D

Im feeling better already :D hahaha

2008-09-20T22:06:00.008+08:00

My face is red. My Face Is Red. My. Face. Is. Red. T-T

Im praying fervently (descriptive phrase! :D Poony will be proud(: ) for my face to not turn brown tmr T-T

Went to ____ with St. Its really quite cool and Im tempted to go again =x
..Argh. Its St's fault D: :X haha

I thought Chem extra lessons started at 8.30am today. In a cruel twist of reality and a purely accidental misunderstanding, its supposed to start at 8am-.-
Rach called me around 8.20am when I decided that I'll be late for class(still thought it'll start at 8.30 :x). Then after that dramatic strike of realisation.... I took my own sweet time to go to school(:

But I DID chase the friggin' bus like a mad woman ><"

And then, Mrs Tan announced to the class that I was blow drying my hair-.- gosh-.- And she later molested my phone. D:
Kenneth's idea is soo pathetic-.- and he didn't have to go through Mrs Tan's nagging-.- ugh. Idiot.

Ohya, St and I went to KFC today (:< (inside joke) (Hint: the 'C' in KFCCCCCCC :D)

Feel really happy for Ebe and Alex (: haha

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Fidee-- Hmmm.. yeah, small accomplishment for small pple :D hahaha XD jkjk :D haha,um congrats? :D We missed having bfast together today! D: Grr D:

Luchi-- Ohh cool, yeah. Can send me next time? haha :D I only want the songs from the caocao album and 89757 coz I lost those albums in my com ):

Eddie-- Yeah, I know :x haha. But Im lazy to change ;p haha
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2008-09-14T13:49:00.002+08:00

Just deleted a post. Super pissed. There's a hypocrite in my house. a friggin hypocrite.

Don't you just loathe hypocrites?

2008-09-05T19:37:00.004+08:00

Went to east coast with my mum and youngest brother yesterday morning. :D We skated/cycled (I skated and they cycled. Which is friggin unfair. And tiring ><") for almost the whole of east coast park back AND forth.(give or take a few metres) O.o

Then we baked brownies that's supposed to be round as in, sphere-like ('cause thats how it's made and how the book showed it-.-) but it turned out roundish but FLAT like, cookies O.o
Then we baked choc cookies that tasted like brownies O.o
and the choc cookies were super super super BLACK. ><" but not burned. just black ._.!
I say this because cookies are not meant to be black. :l
And I emphasise that its not burned/overcooked/chao-dar ><"
...and I think Im gaining back whatever calories I burned with that one supposed-to-be-round brownie I just ate ><"

Supposed to go for 3c class outing today and it sounded like fun. haha.
but I didn't go. (sorry Jael :x) Next time,yeah? :]
Ohya. My mum insisted that I said I was going for 'class' today. She totally missed out the outing part. -.- pffft. D:<

Tomorrow there's zone meeting and capt ball! :D haha :D
Go 6.4! :D

2008-09-04T19:42:00.002+08:00

A post was deleted by Kenneth's request-.-
bugger :/

I still need to change this bs though ><"

I just baked cookies with my mum and younger brother today :D
I made brownies that look like cookies o.O Its seriously "bu brownie bu cookie". hahaha :D

And someone please tell me a really good website to download songs :D (chinese ones too) :D

2008-09-02T14:24:00.002+08:00

Im uber pissed off now 'cause Im reminded that many many many entire albums I had downloaded track by track aeons ago are gone. T-T
So for example 5minutes ago, I felt like listening to old jj songs, and I can't simply because the entire cao cao and 89757 albums are not in this com anymore. T.T

screw major hard disk crashes-.- ugh-.-
I still want my old songs back. and yea I havent gotten over it yet-.-

ps: keeping you in my prayers(:

2008-08-25T04:54:00.007+08:00

I seriously need to change this blogskin. but its like, 4.55am now :x
(typing vigorously --and nosily--just to piss my bro off.hopefully) :D

I haven't done the Emaths heymaths quiz yet.
And I only JUST realised I've screwed up for the Lit assignment and so... ugh. D:

I'm really happy for Ebe. I dunno why that's sth to be happy about but I am. hahaha. :D
congrats :D
IM SO GOING TO TAKE BUS (to school) <~~TMR~~ TODAY AND FRIGGIN' PISS MY MUM OFF ;D

its like, there's this sense of unwillingness to talk to me. now i know i can neither ignore you nor talk to you. whats there left?